(as always any and all names have been altered/deleted to
protect the privacy and anonymity of all parties involved)
By
now the white coat has become kind of old hat. I can’t believe I’m saying that because literally one year
ago I regarded this addition to my wardrobe the crowning jewel—too often I now
find it crumpled in a heap at the bottom of my bag . Its interesting to me how quickly we readjust and more
interestingly how quickly we regain the same level of dissatisfaction we were
at before a “significant” life event.
My whole life I feel like I’ve been counting down till med school and
now I’m here and honestly I feel the same. This is a matter of perspective and the dilemma of being
unable to observe your life from the outside looking in really resonates here
with me. I can’t wait to be an
attending but for now that seems like a lifetime away which was underscored by
my realization of how incomplete my own clinical knowledge bank is and even further
how immature my clinical judgment is.
I
knocked on the patient’s door and
gently pushed the door open to enter the room with my best attempt at a
friendly smile. The patient was
seated the armchair next to his bed in his washed out blue hospital gown and
green socks with the grippy lines on the bottom. He motioned me over and I took a seat perched on the edge of
his hospital bed.
“Hi my name is _________ and I am at second year
medical student at ___________,
and I was wondering if it would be okay if I ask you some questions about what
brought you to the hospital?” I said with a little too much enthusiasm, even I
caught myself off guard.
He responded “Sure, go ahead”
“Mr. _______? Is that correct?,” I continued
“Yes”
“And how would you prefer I address you?”
“Pete is fine”
“Okay Pete, thank you for allowing me to do this so
lets get started”
For
those of you who have been following me through this journey you will know how
strongly I feel about asking that question (click here to see an old post regarding the same topic: Don't Call Me Bob).
From
there I went through the CC (chief complaint) and HPI (history of present
illness) and am finding OLDCARTS (onset, location, duration, character, aggravating
factors, relieving factors, timing, severity) to be a very useful pneumonic in
keeping the HPI in order. It feels
like something that will become more natural as my training progresses but for
the time being I need a structure to follow so I don’t miss something. A post of clarification of terms will
be forthcoming.
We
discussed the clinical course of Pete’s condition and his situation was not the most ideal for an M2 to be investigating because he had been admitted to the hospital
due to some post-surgical complications, but we made it work. I managed to wade my way through the remainder of the complete history
punctuating that with a full ROS (review of systems) rapid fire in a way that
probably made it impossible for me to glean any abnormalities even if they were
present. Quickly glancing through
my notes I saw that I had collected all of the information I needed to do the
complete write up that was required and turned to Pete and thanked him for his
spending the time doing this with me.
Before I left I did something that I’m trying to make a habit of doing
with all patients I see, I turned to him and said “Pete, if it wasn’t for
patients like you none of us would ever learn anything or become better
doctors. Can you tell me what I
can do, as a future physician, to make sure my patients know that I care? And
can you tell me how I did?”
Although
you have to use your judgment based on the patient’s conditions if they would
be willing or able to engage in this discussion with you but I have found for
the most part they are exceptionally receptive to this. Shockingly to me I have learned the most about the patient’s medical
conditions and personal lives in this follow up conversation. This is after the “clinical encounter”
is done. It floors me to know that
there is this huge untapped potential that is accessible to me that for some
reason in my clinical persona suddenly become obfuscated.
For
now I foresee the largest challenge at this juncture of my training, and arguably
indefinitely into my future, will be how to temper my personality effectively
into my clinical persona.
Retaining a friendly demeanor and having interactions with patients that
are based on trust and understanding while keeping site of the clinical goals, necessities
and very real time constraints seems like a very difficult and delicate balance.
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